Reassurance Despite The Unknown
I'm at a point in my life now where the unknown has become a lot less scary. This doesn't mean that I'm completely cured of my wonder, worry, concern, or anticipation of the future. On the contrary, it means that I'm acutely aware of all those things...I'm just not scared of it anymore. It's one thing to be a kid and dream of the future, with no regard for the things adults have to worry about (bills, insurance, housing, and all the other lame stuff we deal with). It's another thing to be an adult, who pays his bills, and is sick of it.
By 'it', I don't mean being an adult, because let's be honest, I don't really have a choice at this point. I'm 26, I've got adult expectations and responsibilities. I've got a mortgage, utilities to pay, a stupid cable bill, and internet that always seems to be down. Such is life, right?
Well, I'm beginning to think there is more to it than that. I'm beginning to think that my crazy, pie in the sky dreams might actually be attainable. Don't worry, I don't think I'm going to become famous or rich, but I do think I'm going to help make a difference. And making a difference is really all I want to do.
Think back on your life, those people who stick out, the one's you remember, it's because they made a difference, right?. In their own unique way, they changed something in you, challenged what you knew, and/or made you think from a different perspective. This is the sort of impact that I want to have on other people.
I want to be an agent of change in the lives of the people I come into contact with. I want to challenge them to love more truly, to live more deeply, and to dream more ridiculously. That's right, it's time to take off the 'reasonable' goggles and put on our glasses of 'whimsy'. What have you always wanted to do but have thought that it wasn't the 'wise' thing to do?
I always wanted to be a racecar driver. Formula One, to be exact. Rally Driver was always a good fall back to that. It's the high speed, the counter-intuitiveness of going into a corner faster than your brain says is possible, just to make the physics work. If you go too slow, what your brain says is safe, you'll crash...not enough downforce. But if you go faster that what your brain says is safe, you'll actually be safer. There has got to be a life lesson in there, somewhere.
All that to say, racecar driving has yet to pan out for me, and I'm still holding out hope that I get to do a few laps at some point in my life, but I still want to chase my dreams. I think you should too.
It's a shame how many of us just get in line and do what we're told. Screw that.
We aren't here to fulfill someone else's vision of who we are, we're here to be us. And who we are is exactly who God wants us to be...and if that sounds vague, well tough. I'm not defined by my name, my family history, or my job. I'm a unique creation of the God of the universe who looks at me and says, I love that dude so much that I did something about it, I sent my Son to die for him.
That, my friends, is why the unknown is a lot less scary to me: I know who is in charge. God is good and I can trust him. No matter what doubts I have or shortcomings I feel, I know that God is who he says he is and because of that I know who he says that I am...and knowing that makes the unknown exciting.